I just got home, and yea it's too early that I didn't even hang around the camp and puff a single cig (given the chance and the horrible mood). And it's so seldom that I have this type of front, but certainly, even without its daily visibility, it's in my individuality... it's still ME. Soooo ME! *shut* And as soon as I enter our house, I walked-in towards my room to reflect of what have really happened. Unquestionably, I'm mad and helpless through that point. The acts of confronting were being overstated, but only in my imaginative mind. I'm going nuts and I just want to stroke any idea I projected. But even if I state the entire basis, I'm still not sure if I could win the case. Since letting go of something or someone without any struggle does not imply weakness, inconsistently.
There's much more for me than what you have taken! Curse you!
[ Deymn.. Nice one! I love that line!! =) makes me refreshed! *whew* I think I won't be needing the alcohol now... haha. Do I have to call it off with no bona fide? Hell of nonsensicality here. ]
Talking about them; the Others (but not from Lost), will be the substance of this entry.
*warps back*
The others don't really know me. They only act as if they were. In fact, their sense and shout-outs about me is not what I really am after all. They don't even know the 10% of ME. Imagine? So where did those impressions come up, when they could only sense is just the floating point of 0.001 or less of my dorky presence?
mydorkyFRIEND : oh san ka galing?
theverydorkyME : sa washroom. *raised eyebrow* oh you're with "Ims"?
mydorkyFRIEND : *laughs* hindi ah. Tinanong niya ko kaya ko kinausap.
theverydorkyME : sus.
mydorkyFRIEND : hindi mo itatanong kung ano?
theverydorkyME : oh well, shoot it.
mydorkyFRIEND : Tinatanong kung kayo pa ni "J"...
theverydorkyME : haha. sino sa "J" ko...
mydorkyFRIEND : hambog!
theverydorkyME : oh ano nga?
mydorkyFRIEND : yun nga rin yung tinanong ko eh *laughs*
theverydorkyME : *laughs* then? Anong reaction niya? Nakuba siya sa tanong mo?
mydorkyFRIEND : Oo. Marami ka pa rin daw kinakarir. Tapos ang dami pang tinanong. Tumahimik na lang ako. Ano yun Interview o Graded Recitation?
theverydorkyME : eh.. do I know her?
mydorkyFRIEND : haha. oo kilala mo yun. pero siya, hindi ka niya kilala. ni hindi niya alam kung sino ka talaga. Ang gago niya rin naman at sa akin pa siya nagtanong. Though alam niyang close tayo, hindi niya naman naisip na malalaman mo yung kagaguhan niya.
theverydorkyME : teka, you do?
mydorkyFRIEND : malamang kilala kita!
theverydorkyME : sige, paano??
mydorkyFRIEND : tara yosi...
theverydorkyME : haha. hindi ka nga OTHERS =P tae ka!
...that conversation with my not-so-dorky-buddy gives the gist. She knows not only my smoking stances, or my history of love-affairs and whatnots, that lad knows me from within. However, this lad doesn't know me exactly, but maybe about 10-20% of what I really am. *smug* It’s 10-20% higher than what the Others assume. Lol! Whopping difference eh?!
And as right as I fuckin' believe,
I'm not perfect, but I know I'm smart.
As well as I'm confident and have my OWN IDENTITY.
BOGUS,
I have some crap for you:
[1] Don't try so hard to become ME (for that would never happen!)
[2] Put up your own mask and stop doubling-up what you can't imitate (aww... trying hard eh?)
[3] Impersonating takes much expertise and it should be impressive enough (bear that in mind, if you have.. heh)
You get it?
Plus here's a swift note...
GET A LIFE!
YOU CAN NEVER BE ME!
THE TERM LOSER DOES ONLY APPLY TO YOU
DAMN YOU IMS!
FIND FOR YOURSELF!!!
(........time starts now!!)
L.O.L.
Oh well. It would fit much better now =)
I suppose, I'll just have to screw the Others.
*yawn*
I love this entry.
It makes me so dedicated.
Anyways, got a black-and-red nail buff ups =) I'm to repaint them next week with a more gripping tint to shit them off (again)
DARN! I AM SO NICE! =)
1 Comments:
Julius apologized.
wow i don't know how to react now
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Eihcamhai, at 3:44 AM
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