nakakagago talaga yung mga nangyayari as of now =/ ang labo eh minsan nga lang tumagal ang conversation namin followed by this fuckining event ang alam lang namin, late dawn ko siya nakita (though i'm not that sure na siya nga yun), hindi ako lumapit sa kanya para magpakilala or umepal sa tabi niya *preferring to stay behind my group while staring this flickering someone* natapos ang event, umuwi ako with my past lover then after several hours "siya" ... it's a week of mushy messages and chat convesations "rapidly falling in" na kahit gusto ko siya at gusto niya ko, our story already had a cover and why is that? oh, it's as simple as, iba kasi yung stand niya, hindi siya for serious attachment and whatnots big deal sakin yun pero, yung pag deny ko sa game niya heh. what if i have the same opinion at an instant? what if.. what if.. what if.. pero that "what-ifs" will not take its place again, right? so i'll just freak out once again, and say... "i miss you" .............. ayoko na. wala na akong mailagay. yun na yun eh.
mas oblique pa kasi yun sa mga reflexes ko
for months, magkachat kami
typical "hi", "hello", "busy?" phrase lang
siguro kapag hindi siya busy,
kapag wala siyang makachat,
o kapag gusto niya manggago.
walang planned time or place for us to meet up
pareho kaming existing sa mundong yun
in short, ex ko.
shorter, x q.
heh
may nag Online sa Y!M List ko
so, i started to freak out
"what if mag-invi na lang kaya ako"
"err.."
"busy kaya siya?"
"oo, bc-bchan yun kaya hindi niya mapapansin na OL ako"
blah blah blah
(as i double-clicked this person's ID and yak with)
and that conversation leads to a different line
(so as to giving out our contact numbers)
also, a week for me to commit a sinless crime
a hell of one week that felt like in heavens
but that's just it
just that ONE WEEK
after that week
its ended
i didn't play the game
at ako naman, i'm still attached with someone
kasi lalabas na ang sama ko
at maglolokohan lang rin kami
it doesn't mean na pati ang status namin as friends will be affected
what if pumayag na lang pala ako?
fuckining stretch of time!
gago ba
wala naman nun eh
"shit ka nga lang and your effective ignoring ways"
"though, i still want you"
*sigh*
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