It's been a year since our last goodbyes. We've separated with the underrated deliberation of your adulthood. I'm still youthful back then. Perhaps, much of my regrets we're soon to slowly form, realizing that I made a bunch of mistakes for you and for us. However, I also tried my best to be better than the usual.
Without you my parents were too happy to still have their only daughter, me, the bachelor. I have really lived well as you may see. The 'cool off' worked out for me as the finest. How I could freely go without your family-oriented-consent and do any of the acts that I want. It's just so crazy going liberally. Truly crazy that I didn't know how this would happen.
It wasn't fleeting and it scares me. I am now seeing flashbacks and it's not simply black and white. Thus, it is highly tinted with neon to clearly depict what went before.
I'm missing you that it makes me weaker to lament.
I'm sorry for causing you all the blame.
I'm sorry if I canceled everything going and not supporting your dreams.
I'm sorry for rejecting the proposal.
I'm really sorry for all the pain and troubles.
I'm sorry for letting you go.
I'm sorry for not being with you perpetually.
And I'm sorry for ranting, just now. For not letting you know that I, also suffered a little. That though you loved me unconditionally and I did not, I haven't endured yet.
Please don't keep me ranting. I just need your greetings. Damn, you cannot forget.
Meeeeeepp! I'm done with Gokusen 1 and HYD 1, next is Kimi wa Petto, and then the Tokyo Tower. Awwwness. That dorky guy do really carry off his role. Can't help lurving him, obsessively watching those videos on hand.
Irene's here a while ago. Heck, she's also Junified. Told her that I'm planning to fly over Japan and meet Jun. Lols! Am I craving that much?
"I'm screaming out inside. But there's no one around!"
"I'm on the outside, waiting."
*sigh*
CHEESY, that is. Yea, super! He shouldn't opened it forever. I shouldn't bought him that kind of shitty stuff! Now, it's almost coming. The end of yesterday, the start of tomorrow.
I'm sooooo screwed up.
Can you be forever innocent?
Can we just hide what isn't necessary?
Can you just forget it?
It isn't LOVE ok?!
For you don't know what it means.
And you, you are still naive.
Why am I saying this?
Let me ask you first, can you love me when I'm gone?
Then after, you will understand.
(Just the time when your heart stings with pain.)
Salve! Finally, I'm fuckiningly done with the cracker box! Great! More lessons for me to go (particularly in texturing, camera, and animation).
I've been busy the whole day by not just dreaming. But yea, at this instant, I am Blog-ging, again.
Doc messaged me last night to see him. The wee hours of the night made me inept to do it. Declining the invitation, he still insisted. I stride in the vicinity of the single-ajar-window, as I saw him standing outside while my dog barks. It was witty-sugary. I haven't felt the heavens for months.
My heart almost pounded.
But not because of him,
It's because of them.
I offered myself a cup of milk to sip before going to bed. After all, I discern to have my-all-time-yet-seasonal-drama-syndrome.
I can escape from the past.
Actually, I know where the exit is.
But then, it does haunt me, consistently.
Is escaping wrong?
Else, is escaping right?
Options are given.
You can merely choose what you want or what to do.
And so, that's my decision.
This is what I opt.
I mostly escape from those memoirs, both liking and disliking them in purpose.
Now, try to count as many as you can.
From a non-prince you knew to the fullest of the unhappy fairytale story ended.
(This is in random.)
I DO LIKE
JB JAYS ONIN WAR JED NEIL JOBERT JOVIE JOHN FERDS MB JM CARLO TJ ICKO IAN OBETH JICE JHU AR JEFF
because
he's cunningly cute.
he's friggin' new.
he's one of the smart-ass-but-non-geek-school-boy.
he has the shot to make me like him.
he's a hottie.
he's sensitive.
he's the sweetest.
he's seemingly matured.
he's simply the bestest.
he's not stupid.
of music and/or his band(particularly of his voice/talent).
of his moves.
we're supposed to unite as one.
I DON'T LIKE HIM
because
he's a player.
he might have STDs.
he's just my best bud.
he lacks passion, charm, security, adventure, individuality, respect,
or even assets.
he's one scorfano-guy-for-the-public-not-to-see-me-walking-
holding-or-talking-to.
he's younger than me.
he's very insensitve.
of his attitude or religion.
I'm bored talking/walking with him.
he's committed, engaged, or married.
I simply hate to give in and start falling for him.
Lock, stock and barrel, there are twenty-one boyfriend-materials to choose from.
"Others" from the past are excluded.
Lost count?
That's alright.
You can stop counting,
I like it being single.
In a minute, i'll be able to watch SpongeCola's Music Vid of Jeepney (at last! woohoo!).
I've been waiting for it in MYX daily top 10 (morning and noon/dawn countdown), but I haven't seen it yet because of the bluff (the other "Jeepney" Vid of Kala, that is). Lols. Imagine how I could stand it? Waiting 'til the top of the chart just to realize that Kala had the first place. Oh well, that is really fuckining and annoying. It really pissed me off. And yea, Joan as well (while we chat or text). But it would pissed off more people and not just the two of us, especially to those who voted. Is it MYX error? Oh I don't know, but I do care (when it comes to SC). Hah!
So, I'm cutting my story there and just thank the one who uploaded it to YouTube. Whoa. Haha. I've been waiting for this link! Really! Thank You YouTube (for having suchBroadcast), and for those who made/makes the upload.
People, here's the link:
To Download : http://rapidshare.de/files/20661606/Sponge_Cola_-_Jeepney.mpg.html
To View : http://youtube.com/watch?v=zcSuBWHffgY&search=myx
(Tag : Myx, Spongecola, Jeepney, OPM)
Rawrs! Mas cool talaga ang Net (refering to the Internet as is)!
I'm missing the whole group (SC boys, roadies/techies, listers I met, and the light! Yikes! haha). Tadah tadah. I miss IRENE the most (wala tayong gig this May, nasobrahan last month? gawd! how about this June? ano na kaya?)!
Imma watch the vid now....
