The succeeding lines will be pathetic enough to break you through. Guess I had another heart's catastrophe... Can you imagine how your blurry façade still parks up even for a modest count? Wow. I just had a quick bunk entry that talks about our yesterday's upshot eh!
I don't know you, but I love you anyway
I can't see you, but I hope you're here to stay
I don't know you, but I need you here with me
Cause I'm falling down, falling down
*lament*
I'm visiting your site later =)
I'm really missing you (though wala akong ibabato.. heh)
But perhaps, these titles will do:
1. Angel.
2. Lover.
3. Girlfriend.
=)
There's no need to hunch,
Just learn by your heart.
*sings* excited na ako syempre dahil sa'yo simbang gabi, simbang gabi (magsisimbang gabi kami) *puffs* aww.. malapit na ang pasko! haha. tagalog eh. PASKO!!!!!! hahahaha. mas ok ang pasko pag may kasama ka. pag kompleto kayo ng pamilya mo, kasama mo ang barkada, o kaya mas matindi e pag kasama mo yung taong nagpapasaya sa'yo.. yung taong mahal mo. "last year sinong kasama mo nung simbang gabi?" ayos! yan yung conversation namin nung 25th (last friday, one month to go before christmas). tamang pinagplanuhan na diba?! ang saya nun! kasama mo ang mahal mo bago pa lang mag-pasko. eh paano pag hindi mo mahal yung kasama mo? "shit. magkausap kami kagabi." wow eh. hindi mo gusto makita, pero yun ang nakita mo. hindi yun ang hinahanap mo, pero yun ang andyan para sa'yo. ganoon talaga yung feeling kapag hindi mo mahal yung isang tao. hanggat pwede mong iwasan, iiwas ka. pero ang hirap din naman nilang iwanan, hindi dahil sa magpapasko. mahirap, kasi makakasakit ka. bakit ngayon ba sa tingin mo hindi sila nasasaktan sa ginagawa mo? ako kasi, alam kong nakakasakit ako ng ibang tao. lahat nung pag-iwas ko, yung pagwawalang bahala ko sa kanya.. alam ko nasasaktan ko siya sa lahat ng yun. hindi ako manhid. alam ko yung mga panggagago ko. pero hindi ko pa rin kasalanan eh. bakit kamo? wala naman kasi siyang ginagawa para mahalin ko siya. kung may effort man siya, kulang pa eh. pinilit ko namang makaramdam ng kahit konting magic samin eh, pero kahit spark kasi wala. kaya nga nakipagbreak ako. pero ayaw niya ako i-let go. so anong gagawin ko? ipipilit ko na wala na kaming pag-asa? edi ayun.. sabi ko, sige isa pa. ayan may chance pa ulit. pero hanggang ngayon wala pa rin eh. 4 months na kami at wala pa rin akong maramdaman, kaya hindi ko kasalanan kung may iba ako. at yung iba na yun ang nagpapasaya sakin. "samahan mo ko mag-sm" umiiwas din naman ako minsan eh. umiiwas ako na masaktan ko siya. na kahit gusto kong mas makasama yung taong gusto ko talaga makasama, naiisip ko pa rin siya. kasi mali. kasi kami pa. taena naman kasi. bakit ba kami pa? o bakit ba naging kami pa? at sino nga bang pipiliin ko? yung taong mahal ako pero hindi ko maramdaman? o dun ako sa taong mahal ko at pinapasaya ako? nakakagago yung tanong pero yun kasi yung nangyayari eh. *sings* "......Nandito lang ako maghihintay, Lagi mong tatandaan"
kasama na naman kita hanggang sa mag-umaga
simbang gabi, simbang gabi (magsisimbang gabi kami)
"ako lang."
"oh ikaw lang mag-isa?"
"oo."
"bakit?"
"burden kaya ang may kasama. antayan pa lang badtrip na. tapos hindi ka pa makakapagconcentrate."
"nakakatuwa ka rin naman eh. minsan religious ka, minsan naman matalino ka, minsan matino ka..."
"oo ganun talaga ako"
"teka hindi pa ko tapos. lahat yun minsan lang."
"hindi kaya!"
"haha. minsan lang nga."
"ui sa 16 ah.."
"oh kala ko ba burden yun? "
"hindi. iba yun. basta pag magsisimba tayo dapat from the heart, ayy from your heart"
"ewan. anong pinagkaiba nun?"
"basta from your heart saka from the heart"
"oo na. sige na matutulog na ko. anong oras na!"
"bakit?"
"bakit ano?"
"bakit.... bakit nga ba kita pinipigilan?"
"haha sige na bye"
"bye.."
"nino?"
"ng mahal ko. LOL. haha."
"haha. mahal?.. ah si ano?"
"oo siya. ayun magsisimbang gabi kami (singing tone)"
"haha. parokya.. eh teka paano si.."
"edi magsimba siya mag-isa. o kaya magsama siya ng iba. bakit hindi ba siya makakapagsimba ng wala ako?"
"speaking of.. ayun oh!"
"tae. hindi naman siya ang hinahanap ko"
"haha. destined kayo magkita ngayon!"
"pasok na nga tayo!"
"teka, ayaw mo antayin?"
"grr.."
"huh? pupunta ako sa kanila mamaya"
"eh gagawin ka lang nung slave"
"ewan sayo.."
"dito ka na lang magpunta"
"hindi pwede."
"bakit?"
"naka-oo na ko kagabi sa kanya"
"samahan mo na lang ako, mas masaya ka naman sakin ah"
"haha. paano mo naman nalaman?"
"kung tatlo kayo sa isang bangka sinong pipiliin mo, yung taong mahal ka o kung san ka masaya?"
"lol. kakornihan mo nanaman"
"sa text kaya yun!"
"oo mushy mushy.. tae ang korni mo talaga"
"hahaha.. oh ano sama ka na sakin?"
"hindi talaga."
Lament people, lament.
I didn't catch up my one o'clock class just because of my rubbish hobby. Darn! That is sooo horrible! I'm taking so much pleasure that I didn't come to discern the undertakings.
But anyways, it's already done.
The previous fault happened.
*puffs*
There's no remedy for now, but maybe I could deal with it next week.
*yum*
got a popcorn and a peanut butter here. it can be a match, i tell you =P wanna join?
I just got home, and yea it's too early that I didn't even hang around the camp and puff a single cig (given the chance and the horrible mood). And it's so seldom that I have this type of front, but certainly, even without its daily visibility, it's in my individuality... it's still ME. Soooo ME! *shut* And as soon as I enter our house, I walked-in towards my room to reflect of what have really happened. Unquestionably, I'm mad and helpless through that point. The acts of confronting were being overstated, but only in my imaginative mind. I'm going nuts and I just want to stroke any idea I projected. But even if I state the entire basis, I'm still not sure if I could win the case. Since letting go of something or someone without any struggle does not imply weakness, inconsistently.
There's much more for me than what you have taken! Curse you!
[ Deymn.. Nice one! I love that line!! =) makes me refreshed! *whew* I think I won't be needing the alcohol now... haha. Do I have to call it off with no bona fide? Hell of nonsensicality here. ]
Talking about them; the Others (but not from Lost), will be the substance of this entry.
*warps back*
The others don't really know me. They only act as if they were. In fact, their sense and shout-outs about me is not what I really am after all. They don't even know the 10% of ME. Imagine? So where did those impressions come up, when they could only sense is just the floating point of 0.001 or less of my dorky presence?
mydorkyFRIEND : oh san ka galing?
theverydorkyME : sa washroom. *raised eyebrow* oh you're with "Ims"?
mydorkyFRIEND : *laughs* hindi ah. Tinanong niya ko kaya ko kinausap.
theverydorkyME : sus.
mydorkyFRIEND : hindi mo itatanong kung ano?
theverydorkyME : oh well, shoot it.
mydorkyFRIEND : Tinatanong kung kayo pa ni "J"...
theverydorkyME : haha. sino sa "J" ko...
mydorkyFRIEND : hambog!
theverydorkyME : oh ano nga?
mydorkyFRIEND : yun nga rin yung tinanong ko eh *laughs*
theverydorkyME : *laughs* then? Anong reaction niya? Nakuba siya sa tanong mo?
mydorkyFRIEND : Oo. Marami ka pa rin daw kinakarir. Tapos ang dami pang tinanong. Tumahimik na lang ako. Ano yun Interview o Graded Recitation?
theverydorkyME : eh.. do I know her?
mydorkyFRIEND : haha. oo kilala mo yun. pero siya, hindi ka niya kilala. ni hindi niya alam kung sino ka talaga. Ang gago niya rin naman at sa akin pa siya nagtanong. Though alam niyang close tayo, hindi niya naman naisip na malalaman mo yung kagaguhan niya.
theverydorkyME : teka, you do?
mydorkyFRIEND : malamang kilala kita!
theverydorkyME : sige, paano??
mydorkyFRIEND : tara yosi...
theverydorkyME : haha. hindi ka nga OTHERS =P tae ka!
...that conversation with my not-so-dorky-buddy gives the gist. She knows not only my smoking stances, or my history of love-affairs and whatnots, that lad knows me from within. However, this lad doesn't know me exactly, but maybe about 10-20% of what I really am. *smug* It’s 10-20% higher than what the Others assume. Lol! Whopping difference eh?!
And as right as I fuckin' believe,
I'm not perfect, but I know I'm smart.
As well as I'm confident and have my OWN IDENTITY.
BOGUS,
I have some crap for you:
[1] Don't try so hard to become ME (for that would never happen!)
[2] Put up your own mask and stop doubling-up what you can't imitate (aww... trying hard eh?)
[3] Impersonating takes much expertise and it should be impressive enough (bear that in mind, if you have.. heh)
You get it?
Plus here's a swift note...
GET A LIFE!
YOU CAN NEVER BE ME!
THE TERM LOSER DOES ONLY APPLY TO YOU
DAMN YOU IMS!
FIND FOR YOURSELF!!!
(........time starts now!!)
L.O.L.
Oh well. It would fit much better now =)
I suppose, I'll just have to screw the Others.
*yawn*
I love this entry.
It makes me so dedicated.
Anyways, got a black-and-red nail buff ups =) I'm to repaint them next week with a more gripping tint to shit them off (again)
DARN! I AM SO NICE! =)
*my bum is on the cheese, my bum is on the cheese! if i get lucky, i'll get a disease!!*
hehe.. you are really freakin' me out now....but i do love that song
*starts singing the bum-bum song (again)*
i walked off to a privately public place this afternoon. i think 20 (or less) adults yung nandun. and i consider them as adults, kasi obviously nasa 10 years (or more) ang age gap namin.
i was just evenly sitting on the sofa and waiting for a hired hand to handle me. sobrang mind-numbing nung spot ko nun, at feeling ko long-drawn-out talaga magstay dun. pero i can't call off na lang ng basta kaya i have to delay leaving that place.
then, may nag-on nung radio.
omfg! may amusement na ko.
taking the music in makes my mood again. ayos! buti na lang astig yung napili nilang station, at hindi yung songs from their era. hehe.
mas ayos na sana eh.. distraction nga lang yung isa dun.
hala react! free naman tayong magreact eh.
pero tahimik lang akong nakinig sa kanta saka dun sa matandang mas malakas pa yung volume. malapit na yung time ko eh. malapit na kong umalis dun sa site na yun. err! ilang minutes na lang ako na.........
pero bago yun, nagsalita yung isang matabang babae na bagong dating. nagkwento lang tungkol sa pagiging babae niya. tapos maya-maya yung bakla naman ang nagsalita. nagbigay pa ng joke na tinawanan nila without knowing it's meaning. gago diba?! tumawa sila kahit hindi nila alam yung sinabi nung bakla. tumawa lang sila dahil alam nilang nakakatawa yun. ni hindi nila alam kung nilalait na ba sila o kung pinagtatawanan na nila mismo yung mga sarili nila. nakakatuwa silang panoorin eh, ang stupid nila tignan kahit mukha naman silang well-educated creatures. haha. another amusement ko ba? siguro nga. inaantok na kasi ako nun eh.
.........................................blag!!!
(shit! my receiver splits up!)
"ayy nahulog yung CP mo"
"tsk tsk"
"ayan nagkalas"
"nahulog yung CP niya"
"nawasak yun malamang"
"tumayo ka na para pulutin"
"oo nga"
"kunin mo agad"
"ang lakas nung pagkakabagsak nun ah"
"sira yun malamang"
"napunta dun yung isang part"
"hindi. dumi yan. ayun yung CP nya"
"meron pa dun sa kabilang side oh"
and blah blah blah! seems like lahat na nga ng expression pag may nahulog or nasira eh narinig ko dun. still, tahimik lang ako. wala akong binigkas na kahit anong mura nung nahulog yun. nagulat din naman ako eh, pero hindi ako nag over act. hindi naman totally na nasira eh, bumagsak lang. at kung masira man, edi ipagawa o bumili ng bago. ang simple diba? kaya nga calmed pa rin ako na kinuha yun eh. ibang iba sa kanila. pero wala rin namang mali sa ginawa nila eh. though wala rin akong sinasabing tama yun. may right naman kasi sila magreact eh.
kahit naman ako eh, kung sinagot ko sila that moment dahil na-annoyed ako, right ko rin yun! hindi tama na gawin ko pero hindi rin mali. bakit ano bang naitulong ng mga naging reactions and opinions nila?
ang hirap kasi, mahilig tayong makielam sa maraming bagay. inaabuso natin yung rights na yan. sinasanay nating laging magbigay ng opinion kahit hindi naman hinihingi o kailangan.
this fuckining opinions is fine if it is needed, as well as if it is logical.
for instance, dun sa mga school works ko.. i do call for our advisers assistance for our thesis para sa quality nung docu & system namin through the preparation, development, and completion nung study. kailangan namin ng related ideas, reviews, and critics para mas mapaganda yun.
as well as, when i purchase several items sa mall at may salesman/saleslady na mag-ooffer sa akin ng ibang brand. i-ignore ko man sila o hindi, job nilang kausapin ako at magbigay ng positive statements about it. hindi ko man hingin yung side nila, ok lang na magsalita sila ng magsalita. rational kasi yun eh.
and how does it become distinctive?
mostly, ito yung mga reactions natin na walang sense kung minsan. like on how we advise sa mga friends natin sa mga situations nilang to some extent nonsensical din.
"shit ano bang irereply ko?"
"wag ka na kaya magreply?"
"o kaya wag mo na lang sabihin yung totoo"
"tae.. ano naming sasabihin ko?"
"mamaya kami magkikita. may papasabi ka?"
"tapos gaguhin mo"
"haha. gago"
"gago ka rin. tayo ang nag-gagaguhan eh"
"nakakainis naman eh. ang unfair."
"oh unfair? may iba ka pa rin naman diba? edi yun enjoy ka lang"
"oo nga. enjoy lang. tapos magreply ka jan sa katext mo para tumigil ka na"
"nagreply na ko!"
"anong sinabi mo?"
"edi yung sinabi nyo"
"oh? ano bang sinabi ko?"
"edi yung naunang matino"
"fuck.. matino pala yun."
yan yung conversation namin kanina ng group ko. ang labo pero may idea. we are free to express what we have in mind, kahit unpleasant terms pa yung gamitin namin or what-so-ever. humingi siya ng opinion kaya kami nagreact. pero ang illogical pa rin kasi puro kagaguhan lang naman yung sinabi namin. pwedeng gumulo lalo or umayos yung situation niya dahil lang sa simpleng message na yun eh. pero kahit anong sabihin namin, nasa kanya pa rin yung decision.
gaya nung pagtahimik na ginawa ko kanina nung nag-split up ang receiver ko, yun ang decision ko. i prefer not to say anything dahil wala namang maitutulong yun to fasten my receiver back to what it is before. hindi lang porket may rights tayo to express ourselves at mag-react eh lagi na lang natin yun gagamitin kahit nakaka- aggravate tayo ng ibang tao. yung ibang tao kasi na yun eh may rights din.
and that is the right for privacy and to live.
that adults should discern it. alam ko namang educated sila eh. wala naman sila dun kung hindi. pero yung pagiging mababaw nila kanina, parang nalimutan nila yung profile nila. they acted so poorly na halos squatters ang tingin ko sa kanila kanina. “squatters” in other means. nakakainis lang talaga kasi. hindi naman siguro ganon kadali malimutan ang humanity subject kung saan declared ang mga rights diba?
heh. i'm too smart for this crap that i suppose to appear polite even after that event. =)
vid 102
PILOT, part 2
watch Lost and be Lost (again)
=)
air date [channel 23] : November 14, 2005 at 9:10pm
wohooo!!
get Lost.. hahaha..
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"i'm not a coward"
- kate
"alright, if you see or hear anything...
anything...
run!"
- jack
"shut up and stop trying to be charming"
- shannon
"i'm not so good around blood"
- hurley
"i know your type" - sawyer
"i'm not so sure" - kate
"i don't care what you believe"
- kate (fb)
"we should keep moving"
- sayid
"i'm alone now...
please someone come,
the others there, they're dead
it killed them,
it killed them all"
- shannon (translation)
nakakagago talaga yung mga nangyayari as of now =/ ang labo eh minsan nga lang tumagal ang conversation namin followed by this fuckining event ang alam lang namin, late dawn ko siya nakita (though i'm not that sure na siya nga yun), hindi ako lumapit sa kanya para magpakilala or umepal sa tabi niya *preferring to stay behind my group while staring this flickering someone* natapos ang event, umuwi ako with my past lover then after several hours "siya" ... it's a week of mushy messages and chat convesations "rapidly falling in" na kahit gusto ko siya at gusto niya ko, our story already had a cover and why is that? oh, it's as simple as, iba kasi yung stand niya, hindi siya for serious attachment and whatnots big deal sakin yun pero, yung pag deny ko sa game niya heh. what if i have the same opinion at an instant? what if.. what if.. what if.. pero that "what-ifs" will not take its place again, right? so i'll just freak out once again, and say... "i miss you" .............. ayoko na. wala na akong mailagay. yun na yun eh.
mas oblique pa kasi yun sa mga reflexes ko
for months, magkachat kami
typical "hi", "hello", "busy?" phrase lang
siguro kapag hindi siya busy,
kapag wala siyang makachat,
o kapag gusto niya manggago.
walang planned time or place for us to meet up
pareho kaming existing sa mundong yun
in short, ex ko.
shorter, x q.
heh
may nag Online sa Y!M List ko
so, i started to freak out
"what if mag-invi na lang kaya ako"
"err.."
"busy kaya siya?"
"oo, bc-bchan yun kaya hindi niya mapapansin na OL ako"
blah blah blah
(as i double-clicked this person's ID and yak with)
and that conversation leads to a different line
(so as to giving out our contact numbers)
also, a week for me to commit a sinless crime
a hell of one week that felt like in heavens
but that's just it
just that ONE WEEK
after that week
its ended
i didn't play the game
at ako naman, i'm still attached with someone
kasi lalabas na ang sama ko
at maglolokohan lang rin kami
it doesn't mean na pati ang status namin as friends will be affected
what if pumayag na lang pala ako?
fuckining stretch of time!
gago ba
wala naman nun eh
"shit ka nga lang and your effective ignoring ways"
"though, i still want you"
*sigh*
lights off!
nakakabading palang kayapusan si yael eh.
haha.
" You brighten my life like a polystyrene hat But it melts in the sun like a life without love But I've waited for you so I'll keep crying out Without You"
haha.
nice song.
that,
i can even relate through the lyrics.
and uh,
here's another one
[but for a different what-so-ever]
"I want to talk to you But im so scared Before i never cared Infatuation's never there But now it's killing me I really hate myself"
err.
both are skeptical.
err.
gumawa ako ng letter para sa bestfriend ko na girl.
pero hindi siya yung slut.
yung nanggugulo sa life niya yung slut,
at para dun yung mail.
>.<
got your mail.
thanks for the concern.
actually, there's nothing to talk about it any longer.
but i know i still have to react on it.
i'll not make this hard,cause you probably know that what i did is just the normal thing a girl could do when she sense something.
mostly, that horrible feeling that knocks over, til it stucks from the head.
and as i got hurt,
i attempted to talked to him..
that might seems like a friggin' fall out or what-so-ever
but it's just a feeling for a scrap of an instance
that as soon as i got calmed,
it will all be compensated
..and that's what happened
however, it's typical.
and thus will make whichever sense..
sorry for that alarming uproar
and uh,
thanks for this mail
getting your idea had pretty much appeased me.
=)
fuckining shit!
ever woke up not to early and you have to eat breakfast before going to class?
that upon stepping down, you'll find those sweet craps you cannot eat because of your goddamned sore throat.
deymn!
i want to eat any piece of that cakes, pies, and brownies.
just a piece.
a piece that may not affect or irritate.
just for me to taste it again.
but sometimes,abstaining from what-so-ever is much needed.
you just have to control even if it's really freaking you out.
and as much as i am pissed off with the idea,
i just did =)
congratulations to me
haha
happy birthday dad *cheers*
vid 101
PILOT, part 1
watch Lost and be Lost (again)
=)
air date [channel 23] : November 7, 2005 at 9:10pm
wohooo!!
get Lost.. hahaha..
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"you don't seem afraid at all,
i dont understand that"
-kate
".. so real, and i knew i had to deal with it so i just made a choice
i'd let the fear in, let it take over, let it do its thing but only for 5 seconds
that's all i'm gonna giving
so i started to count
1
2
3
4
5
... and it was gone"
-jack
"how is something like that happen?"
-charlie
nature's effect : raindrops
moody mood : not good. unwell. pissed off.
stop asking how am i or how have i been!
screw that!
hell! you don't even care about me!
*sigh*
what's with me?!
uh, cig... anyone??
well you know what,
i just hate it
I HATE
THIS FEELING..
THIS SELF..
THIS SHIT..
emersaydie: gud m('',)rning ate
likesthejedi: hassle naman eh. ate nanaman
likesthejedi: gaano ba ko katanda sa'yo?
emersaydie: ayaw mo ba
likesthejedi: kung mas matanda talaga ako sayo ok lang.
emersaydie: how old r u naba
likesthejedi: ako ang unang nagtanong so ikaw muna yung sumagot
emersaydie: opo
emersaydie: soweeeee
emersaydie: 21
likesthejedi: ok. ka-age mo pala kuya ko. hah.
likesthejedi: 18 lang ako.
emersaydie: ganun ba
emersaydie: punta ka dec 2
emersaydie: ineng
likesthejedi: yep
emersaydie: sa 1
likesthejedi: bakit? anong event sa 1?
emersaydie: mtv sa taguig
likesthejedi: huh? hindi siguro. sa 2 na lang.
emersaydie: ahhh free daw yun
likesthejedi: oh? mas magulo pag free.
emersaydie: sa bagay tama ka
emersaydie: dami pa bolocks
likesthejedi: bakit pupunta ka ba?
emersaydie: cguro hindi na rin
emersaydie: diba own pc mo yan
emersaydie: may cam
likesthejedi: meron pero hindi ko gagamitin
likesthejedi: i'm fed up with cams. wala namang nangyayari. nakakagago lang gumamit non
emersaydie: ganun
emersaydie: hindi pala ako gagamit nun
emersaydie: baka maging gago ako
emersaydie: heheheheh
emersaydie: ako rin di ako gumagamit khit meron d2
likesthejedi: para sa akin lang kasi, wala namang mangyayari kung magcacam ako. kung maayos ako, they will continue to chat/view with me. pero kung hindi, they will automatically turn it off.
likesthejedi: tama diba? typically, lahat naman tayo gawain yon.
likesthejedi: saka, nag-online tayo ng messenger tools para makipagchat, hindi para mawalan ng gana ang mga kachat.
emersaydie: ako di ako ganun
likesthejedi: pag hindi ko gusto yung mukha ng kachat ko dahil nakita ko sa cam, tatamarin na ako
emersaydie: honga walang thriill
likesthejedi: waste of time yon
emersaydie: uu
emersaydie: ok na maganda naman yung nasa avatar
likesthejedi: sigurado ka namang ako yung nasa avatar?
emersaydie: ewan ko lng
emersaydie: bkit hndi ba
likesthejedi: haha. see?
emersaydie: wait huh
likesthejedi: malay mo, ginagamit ko lang yung pix na yan para may makachat ako
emersaydie: ganun
likesthejedi: look, kung pangit yung nilagay ko jan [same sa paliwanag ko sa cam], hindi ka na matutuwang kachat ako
emersaydie: hindi naman
emersaydie: bkit naman
emersaydie: di naman ako naghahanap ng maganda
likesthejedi: hayy.. ayaw mo pa sabihing tama ako. you keep on pretending dude. ganyan ako, alam kong mas lalong ganyan kayo.
emersaydie: hmmm
emersaydie: hindi naman talaga
likesthejedi: what keeps you this way?
emersaydie: ei
emersaydie: ano nga name mo sa profile sa frendster
likesthejedi: what for?
likesthejedi: para tignan mo kung ano yung face ko dun? kung ako talaga yung nasa avatar?
emersaydie: plzzzz
emersaydie: hindi po
likesthejedi: eh for what?
emersaydie: wala lng
emersaydie: my gagawin lng ako
emersaydie: plzzzzzzz
likesthejedi: so ano ngang gagawin mo?
emersaydie: hmmm
emersaydie: testi
likesthejedi: hindi ka naman naka-add sakin eh
likesthejedi: saka i'm not asking for a testimonial
emersaydie: email mo
emersaydie: ano
emersaydie: oi
emersaydie: ei
emersaydie: hmmmm
emersaydie: nagtampo cguro
emersaydie: tol bye bye na
emersaydie: nxtym ulit
emersaydie has signed out. (11/5/2005 10:56 AM)
on the track : sc's una
moody mood : daydreaming
irene,
pakisabi nga
"i miss YOU"
haha.
[parang shout out?]
you can relate with it, i know you will.. =P
do i need to have a "hello world" here?
haha.
oh well,
i just have to move my entries..
other blog-site sucks big time.
on the track : sc's saturn
moody mood : unwell
it's over!! haha. the video shoot of sponge cola's "una" is already done. yey!!!! a video for the year, a video of the year. *claps* thanks master [for the updates] =P
oh, freaky friday.. err. no events for tonight, not any alcoholic drinks or a bit cig. what a chaos?! the semester break is coming to an end.. *screams* but anyways, school doesn't suck for me so i think it's alright.. *stops screaming* hahaha. in fact, i miss that site, and the people associated with it. but everything and everyone is changing. that even if it's not a must, still it does. that's why we need to adopt in every environment we are. and from the past, we should learn. hell, this is life, full of fucking mystery and bitching changes.. *sigh* i just await my friends are still them when school approaches. it's not much to expect from them. i'm really missing those shits.. hahahaha..*effects to the trios [jam, joyce, and nald]*
on the track : pr's scars for it was yours, a part of your work. you are a deep and passionate writer as i am being a dreamy reader who easily believes in every writings you do thus, you and me, it is so opposing. we can never be "us".. we can never be "in-love".. want a deal???
moody mood: lament. lament. lament.
"the less you know, the more believable they seem"
familiar huh? yea, it is.
and yes,
we can never "thrive that something"..
and how about believing such?
shoot!
got back at 10:01am with nothing tracking moving on.. uh, sponge cola's next single will be "una". *claps* yey!!! a new music video!!! whoohooh!! i really like that song as the many does. geez, it'll be a whole working day video shoot for them later on. so yea, that's another thing to think about, be lost, and be keyed up. *sings some part* "maiiwasan ba?? ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko.. maiiwasan ba?? ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan.. nagkamali sa'yo!! nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na... maiiwasan ba? lalong mahulog sa iyo!!"
moody mood for the friggin morn: weird! and i think it's disturbing
err. it seems like i'm certainly getting lost with lots of these dim-wit-made craps. heh. including the fucking efforts, that is oh so required! and speaking of Lost, darn, there's no source to download the recent episode 206 [abandoned]. such cruelty. like having that so called nightmare. hell, i just had it last night. and i was like a youngster who's afraid of the monsters. it's more stupid than frightening, although it alarmed me at dawn.
on the track: mojo's tumatakbo
moody mood: sleepy yet pleased *smugs*
"go for personality or looks?" haha. good shit! that's a question i had read a while ago. attention-grabbing?! perhaps, it is. why would i put it in my fucking blog kung wala lang yon sakin diba? oh well, that's much more to relay. so ano nga ba ang sagot? without doubt, personality! but apparently, ung outside ang una nating napopoint-out as we observe and give some remarks.
and as a typical being, ganon din ako. looks muna bago ang personality. i even had this striking who-ever with me. attractive talaga. and given the time, dun ko pa lang makikilala ang totoong siya.
but so far, i'm graduating from that aspect.
i need to mature.
after all, i learned.
=) heh.
